So you may have noticed that I havent rambled on about the jungle of thoughts in my head for a while now. Why? Well truth be told I was in a funk. I walked around in public smiling and pretending to be great but inside i was suffocating and frustrating. Admit it, you have all been in this state at least once in your life. Two years ago when I graduated from my Masters and moved back home with the parents, I kinda went into this major phase of depression cuz lets just say it was at a time when finding a job wasnt easy and i was facing many other restrictions and obstacles after having lived on my own for the last 6 years. As a result, I had totally lost
interest in anything and everything in the world. Essentially, I stopped doing all the things I used to love doing. Though I came out of that deeply depressed state of mind, I never managed to get myself to do the things I used to do before and love. This stuff doesnt mend overnight but Ive started a little something i like to call funk solution.
For starters change is important, even if it's the smallest change. I went and got a hair cut which I guess I hadnt done in a year. Next step to try out new things you wouldnt normally do or ever do for that matter. I decided to go and dye my hair red so did that over the weekend. Trust me that is something I would never do haha. Oh and today i tried rhubarb, at least I think it was :p.
Finally you have to fight every fiber of your body to get up and start doing the things you loved again. I used to think oh why bother I dont care anymore and stuff, but you just gotta force yourself to. I have started playing computer games again. I had forgotten how much i used to love playing Need For Speed. After this blog Im going to go and download this really old but awesome game called The Cure of Monkey Island. I used to sit there for hours and play that games as a kid. Last night I also started writing stories again. I might write a play soon or turn the current story into a play. Ive started using instagram on my phone and will one day revive that passion i had for photography. It is all baby steps I guess and eventually it will all come back to me, or at least i hope it does :p
interest in anything and everything in the world. Essentially, I stopped doing all the things I used to love doing. Though I came out of that deeply depressed state of mind, I never managed to get myself to do the things I used to do before and love. This stuff doesnt mend overnight but Ive started a little something i like to call funk solution.
For starters change is important, even if it's the smallest change. I went and got a hair cut which I guess I hadnt done in a year. Next step to try out new things you wouldnt normally do or ever do for that matter. I decided to go and dye my hair red so did that over the weekend. Trust me that is something I would never do haha. Oh and today i tried rhubarb, at least I think it was :p.
Finally you have to fight every fiber of your body to get up and start doing the things you loved again. I used to think oh why bother I dont care anymore and stuff, but you just gotta force yourself to. I have started playing computer games again. I had forgotten how much i used to love playing Need For Speed. After this blog Im going to go and download this really old but awesome game called The Cure of Monkey Island. I used to sit there for hours and play that games as a kid. Last night I also started writing stories again. I might write a play soon or turn the current story into a play. Ive started using instagram on my phone and will one day revive that passion i had for photography. It is all baby steps I guess and eventually it will all come back to me, or at least i hope it does :p
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